I think the time has come

No, not the babies! going private! I know a lot of you have gone private after getting comments from strangers or weirdos and I guess I was naive in thinking that it wouldn't happen to me. I was wrong, very wrong. I didn't want to take my blog private because I liked finding people and connecting again, but it has come time to protect my family from this weird world that we live in. I guess I have to think of it this way. Do I want pedofiles looking at my children? NO!!! I need to protect them so if you want to keep reading my blog please send me an email or leave a comment with you email and I will invite you.

Against My Better Judgment

I haven't updated in a while but I just wanted to let you know that I am still here on bedrest and we have reached the 33 week mark. I am so glad that we have made it this far even though it has been really hard. I have been admitted to the hospital 3 times and on bedrest now going into the fourth month, but we are in the home stretch. I will be completley down until 34 weeks and then I can get up and move around my house a little until 36 but I hope to go into labor before then! I think I will. I have had tough contractions and I think it will be in the next few weeks.

Anyway, I have talked to my sisters on the phone and I can tell that they are curious to see how big I really am. I am normally a pretty small pregnant woman but this time there are two in there so I am quite large. At least it is pretty much just my belly, thank goodness. I got up yesterday to use the restroom (that's all I can get up for) and I decided to ask Jeff to snap some shots. I didn't think I would put more photos up but I guess I was bored. Enjoy the funny shots. I hope the beach ball I swallowed will be two very cute babies in a few weeks and my spine will go back to its normal shape. Looks painful huh? It is!!!

Just the belly (or beach ball if you prefer)
The full shot. No makeup and lame hair but I can't do it so this is me in my natural state.

I Hate Big Business

Yesterday was a sad day. My friend Emily had been in town for 10 days taking care of me and my kids. She seriously kept my kids so busy that they are going through withdrawls. Let me tell you a few things they did. Saw UP, went Strawberry picking, went to a water park for kids, the natural history museum, the library, painting, playing and eating. She is the most amazing friend and she had to leave yesterday. I cried quite a bit when she and Jeff left for the airport. I will miss you Em. I hope you can come back when the babies are born!

Well, if that wasn't enough. Emily left around 6am. I was awake and I have to just stay in my bed anyway so I thought I would watch a little news to see if I could snooze for a few more minutes. Well, that didn't happen. Let me give you a little background. We are moving in a few days, yes we bought a house! I will post pictures as soon as we are settled. Anyway, I called our internet and cable company a few weeks ago to schedule the transition and they said it was set to go. Well, on Tuesday the new renters of this house called to schedule their set up and everything went down hill from there. Their new order messed up our order and the point is that instead of our service here being disconnected on the 29th it was disconnected on the 24th! They don't open until 8am so I had to wait to see if I could get it reconnected. Well, I spent a good 2 hours getting help and they finally said I would have service by noon. Well, noon came and went. 3pm came and went. 5pm came and went finally I called and someone finally helped me and at 8pm we had internet and tv. During all this our phone service went out but by 10pm we had our phone back. It sounds kind of silly that I went through all of that to get service back for a few more days, but I am on BEDREST!!! Yesterday was one of the loneliest days of my life. My kids were farmed out to friends because no one was here and I had no tv or internet!!

I read, slept, colored yes I colored a Littlest Pet Shop coloring book and waited for my family to come home. Luckily my sisters happened to call and I think I talked their ears off. My mom called too so I had some human contact. Anyway, it showed me how much I rely on technology. I remember when I started college they gave me an email address and I had no idea what to do with it. I didn't really know what the internet was. Strange how our lives change so quickly. Today will be a little different. I have all of my services and my aunt is coming to town to help us out. What a difference a day makes. Anyway, I titled this I Hate Big Business because I had to jump through hoops all day to get to someone who was willing to help me. Most people just transferred me or hung up on me, no one took responsibility. I wish there was a hometown company that just took care of their customers. I know they can't survive against the big guys so that will never happen but one can dream right.

Here's to another day on bedrest with a little entertainment! I am 30 weeks and 4 days. We are hoping for about 4 more weeks. I did get admitted for the third time last week and they let me go thank goodness so my goal is at least 34 weeks if not more and no more hospital time until they are born. Keep those fingers crossed.

Still on Bedrest

Well, I had an eventful week this last week. I went to have an ultrasound last Tuesday and ended up being admitted to the hospital. They kept me overnight and slowed the contractions
I was having. I was able to come home(thank goodness!) but I have to be on strict bedrest. I only have bathroom privileges:( My mom is here to help which is such a blessing! We are getting along okay, but boy is this hard. I remember this being hard with Dallin but it started about 10 weeks earlier this time so it is just hard. I know that other people go through harder times so that is what I think about while I lie here. That is could be worse. I just want healthy babies so I just have to remind myself of that while I watch reruns and lame cable daytime TV.

Jeff has been great. Dallin's birthday is tomorrow so he took he and a few friends bowling on Saturday and then to McDonald's. Dallin thought it was a great birthday party. I was so sad to miss out on it, but he had so much fun. Jeff has also been keeping my spirits up. It is hard to smile all the time when you never make your bed! If you know me you know that I hate to have an unmade bed,but it would be a little uncomfortable to lie on a made bed day in and day out. He makes me smile and laugh and helps me see how blessed I am to be at home. I love him so much.

I did get out and go to a dr appt today and it was great to get out! I hadn't been outside in a week. Nothing has gotten worse so the bedrest stayed the same. No hospital! I am 28 weeks and we are hoping for at least 32 if not more so keep these little babes in your prayers.

On a completely different note. Jeff and I haven't been on a date in a looooooong time. I am looking for ideas of a great date night movie that we haven't seen. I think on Saturday night after the kids go to bed we will try to have a bedrest date. Maybe we will even get takeout. Send me movie recommendations.

I will survive, it has just been long so far, but our hope is to get two healthy babies out of it. We love them so much already.

Trying Again

Here I go again. It has been a while since I tried to do the digi scrapping and now that I have so much time on my hands I am trying it again. I need some more sites to go to and some tips if you have some. This is another beginning. I am such a slacker and start and stop so much. Hopefully I can get good before the twins are born and then it will be easy to do when I have 4!

Thoughts Going Through my Head

As I sit here I think of the future and what it holds for our family. I am so excited to be a mommy of four and to have our complete family. I know that I cannot do this pregnancy thing again. It is too hard on me and the rest of our family and 4 kids will be perfect!

I was having a conversation with Alexa and I think she is a little unsure of what her role will be in our family when she has to share the spotlight. I was happy to tell her that when I have another baby my heart grows. I am able to love every one of my children with all my heart. I do not have to divide my love between them. I am so thankful for a Father in Heaven who lets my heart grow each time I have a baby so that each child is just as special and loved as the others. I think she kind of got it, but I hope I can show this when she has two siblings that are so needy.

I am conscious of how difficult it may be to show each child individual attention, but it may come at times when we are not expecting it. I plan on showing this to my other children by doing what I do now, reading to them, playing games, teaching and enjoying the ages they are at. Although we will also do individual "dates" we can't do that everyday so hopefully I can show them individual love daily. I look forward to being the mom that I can't be at this time because I am immobile. I hope I will look back on this time and love it because I was able to sit and contemplate how great it is to be a mother and to have the opportunity to raise children who are good and love their Heavenly Father. I love my role

Now onto the secular things that have been on my mind. I can't wait to go shopping after these babies are born. For them for sure, but, I want a new wardrobe, is that selfish? I know this is the last pregnancy so my body will be mine!!! I don't know how long it will take to have "my body" back but I can't wait to shop knowing that my body will stay that way for quite a while.

I am a jeans girl so I will be getting a nice pair (or two :) What kind should I get? I also want to get some cute shirts in bright colors. Tell me where to shop ladies. I want cute shoes too. I know I will need to spend a lot on the jeans so tell me how to get cute tops and shoes for less. I have also been looking on a lot of blogs and noticed the fun jewelry out there. Tell me where you got it or if you make it let me know how to buy it. I know kind of lame but when you lie in your bed 24 hours a day you think a lot. I also want a new hairstyle. Not too short but fun! Hey, I have an idea why don't you all just nominate a fun mom of 4 for "What not to Wear" and they will pay for it all:) I will be 26 weeks on Sunday so only 10 more weeks to my goal, wish me luck!

I hate posts without pictures so here's a cute one. This was 3 years ago when we were in Utah all summer. This is Jeff's cousin Liz and she is getting married today! Congratulations Liz and Duncan! Wish I could be there.

23 Weeks

Well, now that I am 25 weeks I am finally getting around to the shots that I took of my belly at 23 weeks. I had a doctor's appointment that day so that was the only day that my hair was actually decent looking so I decided that I could stand long enough to get a belly shot. Some of the shots were kind of silly including these two but I think taking a belly shot is kind of silly so there you go. This will probably be the only one that I do so enjoy! Yes, I am wearing black, doesn't every pregnant woman love black? It makes me feel less whale like.

I have another ultrasound this week to see the babes again, hopefully the bedrest stays the same and nothing is worse. I am looking forward to an outing, how sad is it that I am excited to go to the doctor.?!!! I also thought that I was feeling better, but now the vomiting is back because of such bad reflux and heartburn. I take medication and sleep at a 90 degree angle and it is still bad. I love these babies so much but man, is it taking a toll on this mama!

the sultry look, sorry. I didn't know what to do with my face since the belly is what you will be looking at.

A close up :)